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[Jan. 21st, 2009|12:52 am] |
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This is my last post as ccntgrl. *tear* I hope you won't miss my emo-confessional, random posts complete with the ambiguous use of the second person and song lyrics! Visit my new blog here. I've added all of my livejournal friends to my "blog list" on Blogger, so I will be sure to keep up with everyone. I will also keep this account so I can access the friends only posts. ;) See you later, livejournal! |
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[Dec. 31st, 2008|12:05 am] |
I am breaking this news officially. I am making a new blog. I'm hoping that with my new year and my new life, I will also have a new attitude. I need a new blog. My years of education are over, and it's time to grow up.
First, however. I need to decide on a new blog name. I need a username and a blog name. I also need to decide on a background (VERY important). Finally, I need to decide whether I am staying with livejournal or moving to blogger. I don't think I can desert livejournal after, what?, 6 years. Any input is appreciated!
I am leaving this blog up. I need to archive all of my post though, somehow. Also, add me as a friend on my new name. I post what it is once I get it. I hope to be up and running on New Year's Day! |
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[Dec. 29th, 2008|04:49 pm] |
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I can't get a break this month! Things that have gone bad since my car broke down: I woke up with a rash (hives) on Christmas morning, my car probably needs a new engine and maybe a new starter, and this morning Newegg called me again to tell me I was late on a payment for a purchase that I never made. Also, did I mention that I'm no longer going on vacation to Washington in January? I love my life this month. In general though, I need to think about how much my life has changed and how far I've come this year. All and all, things are good. I did get a beautiful necklace for Christmas ;) and all sorts of other fun stuff! I'm hoping that starting on Wednesday, things start to look up for me. If luck won't go my way, I'll just find a way to be happy regardless. I need to learn to deal with stress, especially unexpected stress better. I don't like being crabby and grumpy and cryey. I like being cute and fun and happy. That should be my New Year's resolution! |
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[Dec. 29th, 2008|04:31 pm] |
goddessa05: i died last monday
Skatr Rulz: NOOOOOOOOOO
Skatr Rulz: ASHLEY
goddessa05: ha ha ha
goddessa05: i meant to say it |
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[Dec. 29th, 2008|02:07 am] |
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It's like I don't know where I belong anymore. I don't feel like I live at home anymore, and I don't feel at home at your house (since I don't live there, lol). I just want to feel like I belong somewhere. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2008|10:08 am] |
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I feel like I'm not allowed to be sad, but I am and will be anyway. It's not like I need permission to feel something. Whether you or I like it or not, I am and probably always will be emotionally invested. I can't help it. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2008|03:01 pm] |
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Okay, so I finally got to go buy Christmas presents thanks to Ryan! Then my mom calls and says that her and my aunt Sandy will come and pick me up and then they're going shopping. *sigh* ha... but I still really appreciate Ryan's help. Clint also tried to take me last night. We tried like an hour last night to get stuff together, and he offered to take me during his lunch break. We're the couple with the worst luck for some reason. Hopefully things start looking up. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2008|10:45 am] |
Things that went wrong on the weekend that I have been waiting for for 3 1/2 years (some of these may be tmi)
- I had some sort of infection and was uncomfortable for the week and a half proceeding said weekend
- Clint's power went out for 4 hours on Friday morning, so I couldn't work
- I just started taking birth control pills to FINALLY get rid of my cramps. I'm not really sure if I had cramps this month because I wasn't feeling well from the infection that I had, but it seemed better. However, I had my period for 7 days.
- Speaking of said pills, I called to have my prescription sent to the Walgreens on Ridge/Wentworth in Lansing. I went 6 hours later to pick up my pills and waited an unnecessary 15 minutes for them to tell me that the prescription had not come in yet. I waited a total of 25 minutes, but 15 of those were unnecessary because they knew the prescription wasn't in, just didn't tell me. I went later that night to pick up the pills, and they let me know that they did not have them in stock, but they would come in tomorrow at 1. The next day, my mom called to tell me that Walgreens called and said the prescription would be late due to the weather. I called at 4pm on Saturday after I hadn't heard from Walgreens all day, just to find out that they wouldn't be able to get the prescription in until Monday. They called all of the Walgreens in the area (12), and no one had them. Clint and I called CVSs, Targets, and K-Marts, and found nothing. Yesterday morning, I called Planned Parenthood (where I went to the doctor) to get the pills, and they told me to go to PP in Hammond. I went there. They don't have the pills either. They finally just change my prescription. My mom called me later to tell me that Walgreens called to let me know my prescription was ready.
- Clint was sick the day of my party and all day Sunday, so we never went Christmas shopping like I needed to. I still need something for my mom, my dad, and my cousin Jessi. I also need something for all of my friends, but I'll go shopping the day after Christmas... those presents can wait.
- My parents didn't have power last night, so they called to tell me to stay at Clint's. This isn't really a bad thing, just something that didn't go the way I planned.
- Clint got a flat tire yesterday morning, so I had to take him to work. He got two more flat tires today.
- I also had to take him to lunch yesterday. On the way to get him Taco Bell, my car died at the stoplight. Completely died on the corner of Ridge Road and Calumet. We had to push it off the road. No one knows what's wrong with it. We tried to jump it. We put heat in the gas tank. The post needs to be replaced on the battery, but who knows what else is wrong. We went and got the battery checked, it's fine. We got a new connector for it. Clint and his dad went to put it in today. Nothing happened. Hopefully my grandpa and dad will come to pick it up later. Maybe it's just a frozen gas line, and when the car warms up in the garage, it will be fine.
- Speaking of the Christmas presents I was supposed to buy, I didn't get to go yesterday... I was headed out after I was taking Clint to lunch. Clint was going to take me to go shopping, but the windows on the inside of his car were frozen, and he has no heat. We decided we could maybe take Derek's car. We scraped that car for about 30 minutes, only to realize that Derek's tire was flat.
- Last night, I was taking a shower, and I suddenly felt like I was going to pass out. I got out of the shower really quickly and lied on the floor for a while. Then I got back in, finished showering as quickly as possible, and pretty much went straight to bed. I woke up thinking I was going to puke twice in the middle of the night, but instead I just hugged Clint's disgusting toilet and dry heaved. I'm still feeling sick today. It could be the sickness that Clint had, or my stomach could be upset because I took two birth control pills yesterday, plus an anti-biotic. Who knows... I just wish it would go away so I could go shopping tonight. *sigh*
Well, that's all I have so far. Hopefully everything goes up from here! |
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[Dec. 21st, 2008|11:09 pm] |
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Part of my New Year's resolution is to do all of the things that I've always wanted to, but never have. This includes, ice skating, horseback riding, taking a road trip, etc., just the little things. The first one I'd like to start out with is being kissed under the mistletoe. I'd really like that. I've never even seen mistletoe! |
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[Dec. 20th, 2008|11:51 am] |
Motion City Soundtrack - Fell in Love Without You
Last night I fell in love without you.
I waved goodbye to that heart of mine beating solo on your lawn.
Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
And only time will tell if violins will swell,
In memory of what we used to call, "in love."
We used to call it: "love."
Last night I fell in love without you.
The Coup De Grace that set me off would have made for decent fiction.
Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
And only time will tell if violins will swell,
In memory of what we used to call, "in love."
We used to call it:
Last night I fell in love without you.
The stars at night aren't as big and bright as you make them out to be.
And every aching wound will cauterize and bruise,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
And only time will tell if violins will swell,
In memory of what we used to call "in love."
In memory of when we used to call it: "love." |
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[Dec. 17th, 2008|08:59 pm] |
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I just deleted a whole bunch of files from my computer... old conversations, things I don't remember until I read them... all gone. I don't need them. Growing up. Moving on. I shouldn't delete them, but soon I won't even remember that I did it. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2008|07:16 pm] |
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DONE! Not officially done, but done with college. Turned my paper in and hopefully it is good enough. I will be officially done once those grades are posted! |
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[Dec. 16th, 2008|07:51 pm] |
Ever since middle school, I have been saving movie stubs, notes, programs, etc. in shoeboxes. I used to make a shoebox for every year from 7th grade to senior year and a box for college. I also kept a box for each boyfriend, which I started when we were dating, so I could save all of the little things that reminded me of them. I am down to three boxes. One little box stuffed full of things from Garret (I can't get rid of those notes, they're just so cute!), and one box each for high school and college. I didn't get rid of the things in the boxes from my other two exes, I just moved them into their new respective boxes: high school and college. It's sad to think that I've moved from 10 boxes to two, but life goes on. Eventually, I'll just put it all in one bigger box, or better yet, toss it entirely. We'll see. It's nice to know that I'm at least an organized pack rat (the boxes are even labeled!).
Well, back to organizing my life post college although I am not entirely post college yet. I still have to finish up this final paper, but I think about 95% there! I'm just going to wait for a response back from my professor. Even if she has suggestions and comments on this draft, I highly doubt it will take me more than an hour (I'm hoping more like 20-30 minutes) to finish up! Wish me luck. I will keep you updated! |
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[Dec. 15th, 2008|09:10 pm] |
I have that feeling again. I keep saying that I'm afraid that I haven't changed, but in all honesty, I do feel like a different person.... I'm just sayin'.
Anyway, I've graduated! Now if I can only finish this paper... |
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[Dec. 14th, 2008|01:00 am] |
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I graduate tomorrow, well, today I guess, which is exciting, but not really because I still have to take my finals on Monday and write one more paper. Wish me luck! Geez... I hope I don't trip tomorrow, lol. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2008|09:20 pm] |
Ryan recently (jokingly or perhaps seriously, you never know with him, lol) spoke of his love of angry handwritten letters (here, if you're interested, which you SHOULD be). Seriously, though, I handwrite a lot of things, particularly my essay outlines or ideas. There's something about handwriting things that helps me collect my thoughts better than the computer. I focus more. Sitting in front of the computer distracts me (like right now).
Slowly moving down page 13 (of 14... at least) of my essay. Why, oh why can't this semester be over already? I know that in one week I'll probably be finishing up my final essay, but I just can't take this anymore! I need a break, a permanent one. I'm so excited to start the rest of my life. People go to college to figure out who they are, I can't wait to finish so I can have my life back. I can read, maybe pick up a hobby, find a job (while still working for Shore). Oh, the possibilities. ;) |
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[Dec. 8th, 2008|09:38 am] |
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Ugh... inside jokes keep coming back. I find myself having to literally hold myself back from saying or doing things. Sometimes I don't succeed. This is very frustrating for two reason. 1. I'm definitely moving on. 2. I'm pretty annoyed/angry at the moment. Blech, that's what I have to say about that. |
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